Yesterday I garden-hosed my car since she was a little dirty birdy. To my dismay, earlier today there was a tiny flash of rain for half a minute and I was dreading seeing another nasty film of spotty dirt and dust too soon. She was untouched actually - so, blessed? Jokes aside…
In reality, I haven’t been in a good place. I’ve been MIA here since January ’23 - though I had kept myself pretty busy and was looking forward with pride to making a post in March talking about all that I have been doing, life yeeted at me the biggest wrench(es) I’ve had to face yet.
Now, I no longer know where to begin. It’s been a year since I had a full-time position, and since wrapping up my recent semester as a teacher at ArtCenter in April I’ve been out of work. Those only added on to the multitudes of struggles I was facing. I wanted to do a storied blog post, but sandwiched between depression and indignation, I just couldn’t bring myself to share my trauma. I’m a not-so-pretty burnt-out mess of a human right now. I know I’m not saying enough now (I will soon, I’m going to try), but it boils down to this:
I desperately could use your help. If you could spare any contribution, I would greatly appreciate it as it would help me on this long road of recovery.
I feel like I suffered significant ideological deaths - my hope for the self and for the world at large is just at an all-time low. I’ve just been stretched so thin, mentally and physically, and unable to do a lot as of late. But I really am trying. Though it’s been hard, I’m trying to work without having actual work. I’ve been quietly updating some of the other pages for a while now, and also working on a new twenty-paged portfolio. It’s complicated, and maybe a bit much, but considering how much pressure I’m facing, I have to hail Mary this and try to knock it out of the park. For now, I’ll share this teaser of the culmination of my professional work.
Going to leave the site at this for now. I’ll eventually be back, sooner than later, with more to show off, and to tell the rest of my story. If you read through all this, and/or you are willing to spare any expense to help me keep my head up, please know I appreciate your kindness and generosity.
Hope you are all faring better! I’ll talk to you again soon.
- Wilson Huang